e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

Tomorrow is the last day of exam. Yah but I very jealous of everyone else who finish. Wah!!! Very sad. Never mind tomorrow can go play pool. Finally. So far my test have been crappy. I only find chemistry ok but everytime its ok it becomes horrible. One more paper must ren. Why was physics earlier then can go play pool today.

Saturday going to watch superman. I don't think Jewel can go. So sad. I'll be stuck with Laura. Damn. But oh well its been a while since it was just the 2 of us. I'm just ranting. Go shopping. Why can't I find shoes that fit me. Its so frustrating. I must go Australia and buy shoes at the end of the year. Haven't been to Sydney for many years.

I should be sleeping now since I've been sleeping much the past few days and everytime I say I will go and sleep I end up doing something else. Like now I'm blogging. At the end I end
up sleeping later and watch the second half of 11pm match. But you get to see the goals and people desperately running around trying to score a goal so that they will win. I feel bad for Australia and Ghana. The Australia VS. Italy game the referee must be blind. It was so not worth the penalty. The outcome of the Brazil VS Ghana was expected. So Ghana had to be kicked out so early. Hope they come back in the next world cup. There was also the Portugal VS Holland game with 4 red cards and 16 yellow cards I think. FIFA chairman must give him red card too. HAHA. I very proud of our Singapore referee.

I don't know why but a lot people seem to like the show High School Musical. Is it really that nice. Too bad I don't have disney channel.

4H gathering still don't know where it is being held. I pray its not going to be cancelled. Oh Cheryl's party on 8th July the this Saturday celebrating my brother's birthday. My birthday in about I little more than one month. I want to get contacts.

I better go sleep or study. But I leave with lyrics from a anime called NANA. I love the ending song.

A Little Pain
by: OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (TRAPNEST)
作詞: OLIVIA・Masumi Kawamura
作曲: Hiroo Yamaguchi

Travel to the moon
kimi wa nemuri yume wo toku
dare mo inai hoshi no hikari ayatsurinagara。
・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Travel to the moon
You're sleeping, solving a dream
while the light of the deserted star pulls the [puppet strings]

tsuyoku naru tame wasureta
egaokitto futari nara torimodosu。
・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I forgot to smile in order to be strong
I'm sure that if we're together, I can get it back

* kidzuiteI'm here waiting for you
ima to wa chigau mirai ga attemo
I'm here waiting for you
sakebitsudzukete
kitto kokoro wa tsunagu ito wo tagutteru
ano koro no watashi me wo samasu you ni
no need to cry。
・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Realize that I'm here waiting for you
Even if the future is different from now
I'm here waiting for you
continuing to shout
Surely my heart is reeling in the string that connects us
No need to cry
in order to wake me up that time

Travel in silence
te wo nobaseba fureru noni
kimi wa tooi
sore wa omoide no naka no koto。
・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Travel in silence
When I stretch my hand out, I feel you, but
You're far away
It's within my memories

koe ga kikoeru me wo tojireba
chiisana itami sae itoshikute。
・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
When I close my eyes, I can hear your voice
Even the small ache is dear to me

mitsumete
I'm here waiting for you
kaze ni fukare hitori mayottemo
I'm here waiting for you
sora wo miagete
zutto kokoro wa te wo hirogete mamotteru
ano koro no kimi ga furikaeru made
no need to cry。
・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Look at me
I'm here waiting for you
Even if I'm lost all alone with the wind blowing on me
I'm here waiting for you
My heart is protecting you all the time, my hands spread out
no need to cry until you former self turns back

(Feel something　Feel nothing
Listen closely　Listen closely)
Wide open ears
Disarm the dream tickler
In the constant moment
(You will find me　Where it's quiet
Listen closely　Listen closely)
Let the blood flow
Through all the spaces
Of the universe

* repeat

Also I really need to change my blogskin. I'll probably change it before the week ends. I think I'll change tag board to cbox. So bye.

-Be kind to unkind people, they probably need it the most-

grace
3:52 PM

Last one :) I have one thing to say. After my long absence I'm back in business!

-Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life-

grace
5:29 PM

Another one :)

-Our greatest glory is never in falling, but in rising everytime we fall-

grace
5:25 PM

These are the ones which are smaller and I tried to put up but to no avail. But I can't seem to put them up all at once.

-If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was.-

grace
5:16 PM

Here is the pic from my sjc days. How I miss them. I'm gonna post more of these for fun. I'm bored seriously. I need to study.

-Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months-

grace
5:05 PM

Not all these pictures belong to me. Hope you enjoyed looking and i'm too lazy to say who is who. I'm trying to find a nice song but can't seem to find one. Some people find it annoying I guess it can be. Oh well. I really need to change my skin. I think I may put dancing queen as my song but it so does not fit my blog skin. Haha. Anyway I better go. I have Chem practical tomorrow and I'm suppose to be studying. But still what can you study for Chem practical ??? Anyway manga artist Arina TAnemura rocks. I love her work. Too bad I can't draw but I know people who can.

Ja ne.

-When a person can only focus on one thing, it is proof that their dreams are strong-

grace
4:55 PM

Basically I haven't used written in my blog for like super super long. Sometimes I wonder why. Maybe because I'm too lazy or I don't want to let go of the past. I want it to feel like yesterday I was in yjc or in sjc. I miss the people there. Basically I'm now in 1T35 of CJC. I had a big picture commemorating my stay in YJC now I have one of all my friends from SJC. I'll put up CJC pics later. I feel this picture is more important. This is possible due to picasa's help :) I can't seem to post up the collage picture maybe another day. I want to change my skin and music. The song I want isn't there. Skin I have to find after my exam which is next week. This is a so irritating I cannot find the song I want.

I miss 4H so here is a pic of them. I wish we could put our video for graduation. Oh wait I think I can. I will use you tube. But I have to do that another day. Or maybe not. I did already. Though its kind of dark. I'm having 4H gathering on 15 July just not sure where. I'm looking forward to it. Boring details about CJC is below if anyone wants to read.

Last week Wednesday went out with my old clique. We were suppose to celebrate Lene's birthday. I wanted to play pool but everyone went with me for a while. I don't know why people don't like pool. Its fun. I got addicted to it after we played for 7 hours at downtown east with my yjc class. I've been trying to go to the club to play but my parents ain't free. Anyway I went out my clique it was so fun. The 6 of us reunited. I bought a bag and top. I spent a lot of money that day. I went round looking for shoes but cannot find my size so sad. I really wish my feet were smaller. Why why! Anyway I love the top. I have a pic here.But I enjoyed myself that day. I hope my mother will allow us to get a table to put in the house I pray.

I lot has happened in these few months. Sad and happy. Siok Hoon's father passed away. I don't know whether I should be saying this. If anyone reads this don't talk to her about it nor tell anyone. I would appreciate that. I cut my hair. No more plaits as you can see from the photos. Some say cutting your hair is like a new beginning. I guess it kind of is. At the end of the year I plan to get contacts.

I'm so happy came by. She gave me Full Moon wo Sagashite to watch. I love the show and now i'm addicted to the songs. I'm now going to get Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne. I think I will like the show. Also now I'm learning Japanese. I hope that after this I can learn the violin. I love music. I hope to get closer to it. Also have a wedding this Saturday to sing at. I haven't sung at one for a long time.

Basically let me think back of my time in CJC and how it started. I felt lost. My facilitators were nice but they kind of kept to themselves until the other facils. I had fun only on the last day. By then we were already in our class and thank god if I were in my IG anymore I would have died. It was so boring. We went to the Police Academy across the street. Lucky me both Alicia and Amanda were in my class. I even managed to get a swim. Haha. Felt nice in the heat. Our class won like top prize then at night when we were having finale with all the cheers and plays and what not. Mamba which was our house won first. That was a great day.

After that to tell you the truth. It was not so great anymore. I was beginning to miss yjc. The teacher were ok but the teachers in YJC were better. I was actually deciding to transfer but I decided not too. Life got even more downhill from there. Our class was united at first then everything seemed to split and we weren't together. I made some good friends. At first I was with Alicia, Amanda, Marian, Emily and Hannah. But now I'm only with Alicia. I hate Hannah now. Then Marian, Emily and Amanda split away from us because of Hannah. Today she actually still smsed me. I'm still pissed but what can I do. Even if I were to forgive her, I could never be her good friend again. I would be probably like hi and bye. That's it. No one in the class likes her. I know I shouldn't be ragging on her but would she did was insensitive and self-centered. I was trying to compile some stuff for project only only her part was left. I kept calling and smsing her then finally she came on msn said sorry and said she was sleeping. Then she send to me. We had to cut down words so I cut out some parts from hers and she was like why you cut out my part and I said because one part and someone else's part is the same but more relevant in the other person's section so I delete and she was like thanks for waking me up, making me feel guilty and useless. I'm like what. Guess what the next day I had 3 tests of which I all failed and then she didn't even come to school. Her and my character clash so we cannot be friends just at most acquaintances.

My class is filled with all kinds of people. 2 of them just left. They are the China scholars. They were very nice and helpful. I have to say I miss them. There are 23 people. 8 guys and 15 girls. The guys consist of Daniel, Brandon, Cheng Yuan, Maw Cherng, Erwin, Esmond, Daryl and Xiang Jun. For the girls, there is me, Alicia Lim, Amanda, Marian, Emily, Hannnah, Huiren, Victoria, Alicia Peter, Tiffany, Natasha, Michelle, Samantha, Xiaoting and Terri. I'm too lazy to describe them. In my PW I have the misfortune of being the leader with Hui Ren, Alicia Peter, Brandon
and Xiang Jun as my members.

What else is there to talk about but to put up pictures. The first picture is of the day we had our sports carnival.

-A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one your thinking of. A dream is just a dream until you make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven to you. -

grace
11:31 PM