I love writing long posts. Sometimes, I'm surprised at what I write. I let my through feeling out just like almost one year ago on my birthday. I wonder if I should open up my birthday wishes blog. I mostly just keep writing about what I do. Never really on stuff that really effects me. But I have a few posts. This one below is a post I wanted to write but didn't finish so I kept to a draft.
"Its the holidays now or more like the end of the holidays. A lot has happened. Most of which I do not want. Life is harsh it can change a person and take away the things that are precious and important to a person. Change is another hateful thing in life. It has taken my friends away from me or actually I have sort of curled up and protected myself from the outside world. It is not fun to keep having to change friends every so often. It hurts. Just when you get to know them you are broken apart. I and my friends from Secondary school have kind of parted. I haven't forgotten about them but it hurts to look at the past and know you can never go back. However they will always be in my heart no matter what my action may lead one to think. Here is my blog and in here I do not lie. I reveal my true feelings here hoping people to understand but not to talk about it in front of me"
I'm kind of rambling on again. I think one of life's greatest challenge is to find out who you are and are meant to be. It never is easy but the rewards we get back will be two fold or maybe more. I just hope I don't end up crying or feeling sad this year.
Anyway today had Chinese oral and I totally screwed up by being nervous and stuttering. The question was what do you think about the people who put out food on the roadside for stray animals to eat. I totally talked crap.
Everyday seems to be getting tougher and more tiring. My life seems fine but there are like so may things and problems to deal with. Worries I wish I didn't have. However, with my friends make it through every single day.
I have no ideas what the purpose of this post is. I'm just typing to keep me occupied while I download stuff. Anyway my birthday is in 2 weeks people. I just realised its on an even week Thursday so I end at 2. But I just realised again that there is a new timetable. If it ends late that day I'm going to cry. I'm rambling again. This is my second time saying that I'm rambling-now its my 3rd time. I'm really rambling now. Another time so its no. 4. I have to stop. So bye and goodnight. I think i'll start writing again.
-Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing-
grace
11:10 PM
