e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

-He is the happiest, be he king or peasant, who finds peace in his home-

Today I'm putting the quote first. Its related to what I want to write today. Because I don't really have a home here. Haha. Because I'm super frustrated because

I WANT TO MOVE OUT!!!

But I can't and this is the only place I can put it up where someone I know might actually see and I don't care. Its hard living with someone you don't really like. There is near to zero privacy and I keep having to be woken up in the morning and do stuff before I can go back to sleep. If not by that time I'm too awake to sleep. I want to be able for once to sleep until I wake up by myself when I feel like it. I at least want my own room. Why did I come to study here. I don't find peace. I am wary of the time. When will my uncle come home. And he is noisy in what he does. He really cannot live with other people. There is no peace at all. I want a job so I can do something about this. Life really really is horrible. I really regret coming here. I wish I can stay somewhere with my friends. Then I can play bridge and mahjong when we are bored. Why!!! Because I have no money. That's why I need a job. If only some ads were true and you can earn a lot of money by sitting in front of the computer. I really feel stifled here.

I feel slightly better now since I've complained it all here.

grace
11:45 PM

I'm back in Sydney for my second semester. I'm taking boring subjects this semester. I wished I knew what I wanted to do. I wish I had a more exciting dream job. Great now I'm fantasizing. Maybe a writer or actor or singer. I'm losing it. As if I had any talent. Time in lala land has to end. I have one and a half weeks of summer school left. Boring. Need to find job so that I can earn money. The weather is sort of crappy. Its hot. The sun here really shines on you unlike in Singapore. Sometimes I wonder if I'll go blind. Oh well.

Well loads of things have happened. Let's see. There was Christmas. Apparently there was like only 10 people. My third aunt husband was sick so she couldn't come and since my godbrother Francis got stabbed Godma and her whole family didn't come. The youth today. Who the heck goes around carrying a knife. I guess lots of people. These people really taint the society. If you want to stab someone at least stab your own kind. Am I being mean? If anyone even reads this I apologise for being insensitive.

Also I lied to Laura that I was not coming back for Christmas. A got a huge beating out of that. Well Christmas was kind of disappointing this year. But its about the birth of Jesus. Anyway here's an embarrassing picture of me from the family Christmas dinner.

On the 27th my cousin got married and I met my JC classmates. I miss them. Will only see them at the end of the year. I want to play bridge, poker, mahjong and dai di. Gambling session. I'm obsessed. I about 95% sure I have obsessive compulsive behaviour/disorder. Especially when I'm writing notes and drawing graphs for econs. The lines of the graph must be straight. I can spend half an hour on a single graph. I need to relax.

Here are some of the class reunion photos. I think we should go overseas or something next year.
Let's see what else has happened to me? Well I fell in love with twilight and Edward Cullen. Robert Pattinson would be cute if he cleaned up and didn't smoke. I can't stand smokers. Well he has a lot to live up to since he is Edward, the most wanted, romantic, caring and non-existent guy in the universe. Don't think I need to show any picture because everyone obviously knows how he looks like. Just in case. Here is a picture of Bella and Edward and his siblings. I do not own this picture.

I totally love the Supre clearance outlet. Sale! Including the factory outlet cotton on and rubi shoes :) That's the one of the good thing I guess.

Anyway let's see how life goes. So wait for the next post that will be out in a few months or a year.

-Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.-

grace
7:57 PM

Its been a while my blog. Around 3 months I believe. Anyway what have I been doing these days. I have started working at the Cafe Cartel near my house. The people there are nice though I can think of a particular person that is some what childish and irritating. Anyway I'm going to Sydney to study next month. I bit sad to be leaving but it will be a good experience. I always thought that I would stay in Singapore to study. Oh well. All the local universities rejected me but my appeal to NUS went through. It came today. My heart totally wavered. My resolve to study in Sydney was slightly broken. I wish it came earlier now its too late. So now must study hard man.

I went to Sydney in April and here are pictures.

A new place to shop. Very nice place with loads of stuff.

Where the University is going to be.

Flemington market. Its huge! Some of the produce is shown below.

We went for a tour. Horrible ride, I just wanted to puke. Anyway the mountains were nice though the fog/mist made everything disappear super quickly so everything was like totally white and you couldn't see anything beyond that.

Its was cold.
We went to see the Jenolan caves. The pretty rock structures.

What does this look like? Can you tell?

The supermarket sold some interesting stuff. This was a somewhat Asian food market. Look they even have drinks not sold in Singapore. Its Fahrenheit. Haha.

Lip Smackers yogurt. I was surprised I thought they only sold lip balm/gloss.

The shoes I bought :)

My cousin got married at Chijmes. The church is pretty. Don't you think so too.

The happy couple.
Tiff's in Canberra. Me and Alicia went out with here before that. Alicia and I gave her this photo album full of pictures from JC. I hope she treasures it. That night the PC show was on so we went to eat at NYNY and there were people cutting through it using it as a walkway. Crazy. I got myself a laptop at the PC show too :) Look all 3 of us are wearing the same top from Mango.

This is some green tea place a Raffles City where I had the Mushroom soup and the 2 of them had green tea ice cream.

This was at Clarke Quay to celebrate Lene's Birthday. I told them I was leaving and Laura started crying at the restaurant. I was so not expecting that reaction. I was unprepared for it. The others took it better though.

A view of the Singapore River.

That's about it.

I haven't been writing long posts have I. Maybe its for the better? I am not sure.

I just realised I haven't said this. I pierced my ears. Also I can't pass my driving because my test date is after I leave. That totally sucks. All the work for the theory tests are going down the drain. My brother got his license yesterday. At least one of us is able to get it.

-The trouble with most people is that they think with their hopes or fears or wishes rather than with their minds.-

grace
10:15 PM

Its been 4 plus months since I've written here even though this is the first entry of the year. I guess it really depends on my mood now. Let's see where I am now. My contract ended with NLB last week so I'm currently unemployed. Now I'm concentrating on learning driving. Just had my second lesson. It can be quite stressful but its quite fun. If my parents knew that they would probably get me to drive seeing as they always fight over who to drive. I got a new pair of spectacles and its pink. So not me. Though I have a slight headache due to the slight change in degree.

A levels are over, results are out and uni applications are done. Yesterday I had an interview at SMU for economics. So nervous. Don't really want to think about it. I have a blister on my toe I so want t0 burst it. Now just have to wait for May to see where I get accepted to.

I'll be going to Australia to visit my uncle next next week. A good change in pace. Hopefully it won't be too cold. Fish & Chips, raw oysters and more seafood wait for me. Shopping too :) Haha. Already got stuff to buy for Miss Lola Tan. Hot chocolate and lip smackers. I might not want to come back.

Anyway the I've put pictures below. There are loads more but I'm too lazy. These are from JC prom.

These are from Carol's birthday a few weeks ago. She has a DS so I can battle with her. So far my pokemon have lost but I will win. Yes. My DS is in the shop again since the repaired screen can't work. I hope they fix it soon. I'm a bit bored. I can't believe I broke the screen cause I fell asleep on it. I'm getting fat. I guess that is why my mom is forcing me to join her aerobics class.
Anyway these were taken at Sakae Sushi, we totally pigged out that day. I was totally stuffed. I shouldn't do that even though they say its a buffet.

This was our secondary class reunion last Saturday. It was good to see each other again. Damn actually am I suppose to put this up. I might get in trouble.

Now I usually sit at home and watch dramas. I'm into Jap dramas. I recently just watched finished Kurosagi, One Pound Gospel and Proposal Daisakusen which I am waiting for the special to come out. I started watching Yukan Club which caused to to get hooked on Akanishi Jin which in turn caused to to like KAT-TUN. So cute and cool. Picture below.

I recommend their song Keep The Faith which was the ending song for Yukan Club. Their song LIPS is not bad too. I should be going to sleep now. Its past midnight. Oyasuminasai.

-After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.

grace
12:50 PM

I cannot talk. If I talk my throat hurts like crazy. It seriously sucks. I cannot eat much and I keep coughing. Have to keep drinking water. Maybe should go see doctor. This feeling seriously sucks. I want to sing.

Yesterday went to AMK hub. But found nothing. There was a nice black dress. But it was hell getting in and out of it so in the end I didn't buy it. It was nice to see Laura and Lene again. I met their classmate Priscilla. I seem to be world famous in their class.

Friday I'm going with Laura to Orchard to try again. Must find something. Something I really like. Hopefully. I'm most worried about my hair. What to do with it.Laura says I should do a
chignon. I just watched finished a video. It looks easy but it isn't. The hairstyle has to depend on the dress.

I've been watching The X-family. Its quite stupid but funny. Jiro looks cool. Also the 2 songs 不会爱 and 出神入化 from the show are not bad. You should go watch it. 唐禹哲 or Danson Tang always plays the more mature and older roles but he is the youngest. I guess its the face. But he has a cute face. I'm listening to his album. Its ok there are some nice songs that I like but there are some songs I feel are off like the duet with the female, their voices don't really match.

There is a threadless spree! I managed to get the cyclope shirt I like but I'm wondering whether I should get anything else. I want to but I can't decide. I really like Ambition Killed the Cat but I don't think I can wear purple. Then I like 7.00 cause I like to read and then I also like Defend the Kingdom which is just cute. Choices.

I need to buy so many things. Prom need dress, do make up, hair and shoes. Then still have Christmas presents. For Christmas I wouldn't mind a pair of earphones, a Canon digital camera and money. One needs money to survive.

I don't have anything left to say so I shall go. Shall put up photos later.

-The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning.-

grace
12:00 PM

Finally its the end of A's. I guess I'm suppose to feel crappy but instead as my friend said I looked depressed. I can guess why.

1. I'm bleeding like crazy and the stomach cramps are almost killing me.
2. My throat feels crappy. Thus I feel even more crappy.
3. My mp3 is being repaired and hopefully I need not pay a cent.
4. Its troublesome to have to shop for prom and hard to get a shopping partner.
5. I can't sleep.
6.The fact that I am poor or I'm gonna be poor after prom and Christmas presents.

Life can really suck sometimes.

I wonder what I should do to pass the days?

I'm seriously randomly crapping stuff. I think I should just stop now.

So bye.

-We pass the word around; we ponder how the case is put by different people, we read the poetry; we meditate over the literature; we play the music; we change our minds; we reach an understanding. Society evolves this way, not by shouting each other down, but by the unique capacity of unique, individual human beings to comprehend each other-

grace
12:34 PM

-Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent-

grace
2:07 PM